I still have this feeling for BL but I think I just have to move on, and be who I am.

Boy, fate met us with each other,
But we are not meant to be together,
When I look up at the sky,
I can see the difference between u and I,
If I noe I’m gonna miss you,
I won’t be giving my heart to you if I noe it hurts,
I swear I won’t ever fall for you,
If time can be rewind,
I want to go back to the time where we first met,
And the first time you talk to me,
But it’s all impossible,
Cause you’ve moved on and I’ve moved on,
The feeling tat I once have for you,
I promise tat I’ll keep it,
Not in my heart but in my mind,
And I will always remember you and I’ll miss you,
Not for long,Till I met with a guy tat can replace you….

I like have no feeling for him anymore and started to have feeling for his friend… it’s so weird, I know!. Cause the one whom always MSG me or chat with me when I’m bored is his friend, I try a few time chat with him but he never reply lol. I was so angry so I give up… I told my friend about my crush for his friend I thought my friend reply would be like “ eeeewwww!!! you like him? Why you like him he is not that good-looking!” but they did not say that their reply was “ ouh ok”. I was shocked, I ask my friend wat is her comment and she say ‘ok’ I ask her wat make her say that she say that I’m very close to him, and she won’t be surprise if I told her that I like him…


YY !!! ((:

I can’t believe that he never come that day I really hope that he come but he never turn up it really upset me I ask his friend why he never come and they say that he never bring his clothes but I msg his friend what to bring and wat time, surely his friend got call him... AHHH!!! I’m so disappointed I think he never come because of me, I think he know ready that I like him …..

oh well nothing much happen's :D soo went to sch per normal.Hoping that i would bump into him & soo i went searching!(:but hey!, Why is he not in there??? )))))):I thought he is in there!!! Only his friend is in the classroom but he isnt,)):& finally afta twisting my head for sometime finding him, I finally found him! he was looking at me! i smiled.But only his friend looked at me and smile back. I was like *gosh!" he soo attitude can?.…. damn! soo the whole day i was soo upset. but i couldnt care less! decided to act per normal forget bout all that happened. & soon school ended. i wasnt in the mood so i went home. otw i saw him again. sigh.... der's nothing i cn do so i walked passed him & he still looked away!. damn it la. Does it kill to at least say hello? stupid bugger. fine lor. i remember dis day!wasnt it u who always say hi's? wasnt u who always text me? wasnt u who always help me out? but why it ended like dis? Raahh!!...)))))))):

Huh? Why is he not in there??? I thought he is in there!!! Only his friend is in and he is out,)): I saw him looking at me but when I look at him back but he look away…. Only his friends look at me and smile…. After the whole thing have end he and his friends went to change and quickly went home When I go out from my school I saw him and his friend at the bus stop...

HE NEVER EVEN LOOKS AT ME!!!! WTF!!!!

I’m so nervous… he so bad sia he laugh at me sia… cause I must take prize on stage than must sit at the side first then his class was in front me then first his friend saw me then tell his other friend then suddenly he turn around and look at me and smile…. AHHHH…
I was soo happy, than my nervous all gone….

AHHHH…. he come so late today, I thought he never come sia. We were running here, running there than suddenly I saw him in front of me walking to put his stuff, first he wasn’t standing at another group so far away but because he is tall he need to stand behind me, walao if I not short than I can stand beside him sia… NVM… than when gathering time he keeps standing beside me sia… I was so shocked when he stands beside me cause before he stand beside there were somebody else….

But he still never looks at me sooo sad sia…

Did he know anything??? Cause he use to be friendly with me, now he is shy when I’m around… Did his friends tell him anything??? Sometimes he didn’t even look at me...

It make me feel like i'm INVISABLE...

I can’t believe that the party is over, I took a picture with him but it turn out bad the picture is too blur. I’m so sad right now, would that be great if I can turn back time… I’m so sad to think about anything right now….